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Performance Artist - Actor - Maker of Stuff

52 Weeks of No TV

I gave up TV for one year in 2012.  Instead of TV, I made some THING every week.  In hindsight, it was a fecund year. (oh yeah, I used the word fecund)  It was the basis for many projects including my full production of Plasticland:  A Better Place.  It spawned unlikely artistic collaborations, built creative confidence and I got to smash a TV with a golden sledgehammer.  I haven't combed through this blog in awhile but I wanted to peruse it for inspiration.

Week 10's thing - A Confession and Something Else

4:04 am, last night.  

Obviously, it was the perfect time to wake up and assess my life.  Since it is occasionally difficult to read sarcasm - I'll let you know; I'm being sarcastic.

This week, I failed at doing the thing I was going to do for week 10.  

Ironically, this is the perfect reflection of what this past week has been like. To save all the boring details, let's just say, I keep meeting up with roadblocks, snafus, bad business and non-communicative people.  How do these places stay open and successful if they are not professional enough to EVER get back to a person?  Frankly, it shouldn't be that difficult to find a venue, book a venue and then get your damned show on the road.

I thought at 4:04 am.   

Combine that with this constant nagging feeling like my timing is off.  I feel the world spinning past me and I'm standing all alone as it whizzes by at ever-accelerating speeds with which I cannot keep up.  I'm permanently out-of-sync.  (Perhaps a side effect of marching to your own drummer)  

I thought at 4:04 am.

Why aren't you thinner?  In better shape?  Why don't you drink less? Sleep less?  Be kinder to your fellow human beings?  More open?  Why don't you reach out more?  Hug people more? Have to do everything yourself? Where is your posse?  Volunteer?  Are more popular at parties?  Have more money?  Get on stage more?  Travel more?  Take more risks?  Call your family more?  Be less jealous?  Going to yoga in the morning? Saving more money?  Cleaning the tub?  Living up to your full potential?  

I thought at 4:04 am. 

So, I thought I would fess up and let you know. 

I failed at doing the thing I meant to do for week 10.  

And it's ok. 

So, I just did something else. I just made business cards so when I tell people about my project I can spread the word about what not watching TV is like and what making things is like.  Because what I'm doing is important to me.  And people should know that.  

And people should know I'm open to collaboration.

And also, I spent a lot of last week laying the groundwork for upcoming projects.  I just have to be patient and wait for everything to click into place.  

And, it just so happens, one of my future projects entails a well-loved, trashy novel that EVERYONE has read.  And, it just so happens, one of my dear friends holds the key to the rights.  And I discovered this while making mayhem with him (and others) in an abandoned warehouse in Brooklyn at a speakeasy party.  

So, I'm still in the game, 4:04 am. 

Hello.  It's nice to meet you.  Here's my card.

 

 

 

 

 

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